Archive for the ‘Desire’ category

Stop him! He’s getting away!

I searched and searched because I was sure I must have written something about this before here, but I can’t find it. Oh, who am I kidding? All my posts are basically meditations on the same five or six things. I’m OK with that! Whenever I hear someone say, often in a voice that betrays […]

Things that are supposedly great that I didn’t like at all

1. Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy This got an 85 on Metacritic, which is high enough to give you a nosebleed. But when RB and I watched it, I squirmed and agonized through the whole thing, because… IT MADE NO SENSE! Seriously, how many scenes can you have where a white guy who looks just like […]

An uncomfortably sincere confession, but what the hell.

Years ago, one of my students took me completely aback when she claimed, “People don’t change until it’s too painful not to.” I thought about that for a long time. Is it true? Are we really so reluctant to disturb the status quo, even if it’s unhappy? Are we ever capable of something more? Without […]

What did perversity look like?

This weekend it snowed and I decided to stay inside and cook and watch old movies on Netflix. It’s become difficult for me to watch anything made since the late 60’s or so; I’m going through a grumpy old lady phase. What strikes me is how incredibly perverted the films of the 50’s and early […]

Wish fulfillment

You may remember this. So, now you can rejoice in this.   Happy 2012. Love, Stella xxx

The most wonderful night of the year

When the world is a mess, you can fight or shop.  Deep inside the Beltway, a gaggle of women went into a shopping frenzy for beauty products last night. They jack us up on cheap champagne and make us feel that beauty and happiness are just one swipe of a credit card away.  And I […]

I want to get old

Reading this excellent, somewhat-Shandean meditation on the glories of post-menopausal life by Roseanne Barr got me all jealous. Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve been spending a lot of my time around post-menopausal women lately, but I’m going through a phase in which I simply can’t wait to be in my mid-50’s. I think that’s […]

Pretty Saro

 Sometimes a song is more than a song.   Sometimes you hear a song for the first time when your heart is breaking. When you are left and lost and sure no one has ever felt this alone. Then you hear this song and it is everything you feel sung exactly how you feel it. It is […]

Vroom, vroom

I’m thinking about getting a new car. At the moment, I’m torn between getting something sensible like this: … or getting something fun like this: Of course, I also have mixed memories of the agonies and eventual parting of ways with this: So… what’s a girl to do?

I believe that children are our future. This is not a good thing.

I had to watch in 1-minute intervals and I missed a lot of it because the part of my brain that processes language would periodically blow a fuse out of some self-preservation instinct and I would stop understanding the words. If you can watch the whole thing at a stretch without dying of vicarious embarrassment, […]